Reflecting back on some incidents in my life today and sharing them with my roomate, it brought back so many emotions and made it all so real to me again.
I’ve gone through some real hell in my life and at a really early age too. No girl should have to be afraid and disconnected from the ones she loves. No girl should have to lose a friend in a drowning incident at such an early age. It makes life seem so eventually. Death is still a hard concept for me to fathom.
Thinking back about eight months ago, I had a real psycho of a boyfriend… I honestly, am happy to be okay, I see that now. But I was so happy to finally be accepted and to feel beautiful that I looked right passed the complications and dysfunction.
Today I have some really amazing room mates, a family that I love seeing when I get the chance, and what I for see as maybe being an addition to my family one day. The Darby family has made me feel so at home, and I’ve never had the love and acceptance that they give me from any outsider ever.
Cody is a complete life occurrence for me on his own. I’ve never had anyone treat me and love me as well and as much as he does without wanting something from me in return. He expects love back but that’s a given but nothing else. I’ve finally found someone who literally reflects the love and joy from within me. Our feelings for each other grew fast. I felt like an idiot saying I love you within the first week of dating but after a second thought that feeling went away because I knew that I meant it with everything in my being. I finally have that life long friend who will always continue to inspire me.
If I had not experienced the hard facts of life at an early age, would I be here now? Doubtfully… So, I embrace what society has made me and thank it for leading me to my new adult life, my amazing room mates, and of course the love of my life Cody Forgette.